Thank you for your shares around depression. I have been sitting with depression since my mother died last November. Her death seems to have opened some kind of portal into the trials and tribulations of my childhood to feel and process. And it has been difficult. Some days it feels like I am wading through waste deep muck and all I can …
Thank you for your shares around depression. I have been sitting with depression since my mother died last November. Her death seems to have opened some kind of portal into the trials and tribulations of my childhood to feel and process. And it has been difficult. Some days it feels like I am wading through waste deep muck and all I can muster is the most basic of self care. And others I find enough energy to go to the garden to look and listen and a tide of longing and desire rises up to meet me. That can be as overwhelming as the depression. That question - “what would this look like if it were easy?” - I want to pin that to my refrigerator or tattoo it on my forehead. How often I am fighting with myself, with what is, with what I need in the moment, with what I long for and am afraid to claim.
Thank you for your shares around depression. I have been sitting with depression since my mother died last November. Her death seems to have opened some kind of portal into the trials and tribulations of my childhood to feel and process. And it has been difficult. Some days it feels like I am wading through waste deep muck and all I can muster is the most basic of self care. And others I find enough energy to go to the garden to look and listen and a tide of longing and desire rises up to meet me. That can be as overwhelming as the depression. That question - “what would this look like if it were easy?” - I want to pin that to my refrigerator or tattoo it on my forehead. How often I am fighting with myself, with what is, with what I need in the moment, with what I long for and am afraid to claim.
That portal opening makes so much sense -- and the search for how it can be easy is a big one. Thank you for this beautiful reflection.