Unraveling from the need for neat
Omg the "manifestation babes"!🤣 Yes yes yessss: Life is both challenge and ease. If we accept this as true, the question becomes, "How am I relating to this? If it's all a dance, how am I dancing with this?"
the less tidy something is, the more untouched it is: the more it remains the raw, bare materials of your becoming.
after all, if something is only your own, why should you expect someone else to have come along and tidied things up before you?
I am reminded of Jonathan Wells' 'April Morning':
You are living the life
you wanted as if you'd known
what that was but of course
you didn't so you'd groped
toward it feeling for what
you couldn't imagine, what
your hands couldn't tell you,
for what that shape could be.
This Sunday the rain turns cold
again and steady but the window
is slightly open and there is the vaguest
sense of bird song somewhere in the gaps
between the buildings because it's spring
the calendar says and the room where
you are reading is empty yet full
of what loves you and this is the day
that you were born.
these days are your becoming.
I got let go from my job a couple months ago and have been battling shame for not finding something soon after or know exactly what I want to do next. Thank you for the reminder how the non-linear parts of life are not an indication of failure and how “ease” is not the only indication that you are on the right path.
This is beautifully written Lisa. I appreciate all of your wisdom and insight. I wrote something today about “embracing your messiness”. Life isn’t linear. It’s not black and white, it’s coloured with context. There is no right and wrong, but we often put pressure on ourselves to have our life looking a certain way by a certain age. Letting it go and feeling into the next subtle best step is all we can do and then pay attention to what feels right after that. In a weird way, life isn’t happening to us, it’s happening through us ✨🙏🏽
Absolutely gorgeous, Lisa! I needed to read these words. We are constantly fed that a straight lined life is the best possible one. Thank you for reminding us there are multiple paths to our truth. ❤️😊
The concept of made it/not made it hit me really hard when I realized that no matter where I go, there I am. I thought for years that because I was fat, I was "wrong," and kept thinking that when I lost weight, everything in life would be easier. Trust me, some things were. But I was still the same person - not better or worse, just smaller and hungrier.
There's a beautiful essay by Rebecca Solnit (I think it's in a field guide to getting lost) about how the horizon is so blue but it doesn't ever exist close up. I think that's sometimes how I see that idealized self. I always dream that once THIS THING happens or I BECOME XYZ, I will be happier, better, have figured it out. I think the quote you shared here fit in beautifully because the messiness and the complexity doesn't mean something isn't worth it or that I'm not worthy.
"Sometimes, what is meant for me is hard." amen🖤
Loving this. Summed up by your point:
“Perhaps it isn’t ours to fix at all, but ours to welcome, embrace, accept, understand, lean into, learn from, allow.”
The closer I look at confusing moments, the more I see. Curious if the “manifestation babes” (love that image) process arises from the mentality that we humans weren’t meant to understand it all, which I’ve been told when talking about details seemingly spinning out of control.
What I needed to hear while growing up is that while I look at the “mess” in the human whirlwind, remember there is nothing you need to do in order to change, fix, or correct it. If only I was told the point is for you to receive the truth, and be informed by it.
You are stating, affirming, exemplifying this right here. It so dearly needs to be said, be placed into mainstream culture so we can all start rewriting what it means to be human.
Please accept gratitude from all of us for braving this topic. Please continue ☺️
oof Lisa, that poem brought me to my knees.
and yeah, embrace a big mess.
That poem 💞💞💞💞💞
Love this, feels like what I needed to read right now.
It baffles me how much this speaks to me in this very specific moment of my life. For the first time in my 38 years in this body, my life is the most untidy it's ever been. It catches me off-guard regularly, but I also feel like I'm truly living more than ever before. Thank you for putting my feelings into words I couldn't find.
i can already tell i’ll be regularly returning to this piece to relearn this undeniable life lesson.
Thank you Lisa. I read your newsletter only since a few weeks, but I find myself looking forward to reading your kind words on Sunday evening. 💕
LOVED this post so much. TY for writing and sharing.
So good, you’re such a gem Lisa ♥️